Marriage.....

Marriage is one of those things most people looks forward to and can't wait to happen. I was recently reading one of my friends blogs about her recent engagement and I realized that even though I want to get married and find someone to spend my life with, I know that it just isn't my time yet. It is hard to know this but I do have so much to live for. 

Yesterday, during Relief Society, Natalie made a comment expressing how she would not have been able to experience some of the things she did if she had been married. I agree with that statement but at the same time there are things I could do and be married. 

It is a drama that will never go away regardless of how hard we try to make it. I can not make someone want to be with me just as someone can not make me want to be with them. It has to be a decision made together. Saturday night I was watching Fiddler on the Roof and I realized that there are good things about arranged marriages. One positive outcome is that there wouldn't be any issues with dating. It wouldn't be something we really had to do because we would know who we were marrying at a certain age. That also brings up the negative side of love might not every be involved. Sometimes you might fall in love with the person your parents picked but that might not always be the case. 

I always thought I would be okay if my parents picked the person I was going to marry because my mom knows me so well but at the same time, my dad doesn't really know all that much about me and he might pick someone totally wrong for me. That is another negative thing. What if your parents pick someone who completely drives you crazy!? You can't get out of it. You just have to live with the choice. I don't know if I could deal with that. I can be rather picky and I don't know if my parents combined choice would really work out all that well. 

Any way, I have to go to class... so signing off!

Stressful days!

Dealing with pressures of college classes can be such a hassle! Sometimes homework is very difficult and can seem very pointless. 

Right now I am working on finding some information about a man named Franklin W. Cox. He died in 1921 and I must find something interesting about him. I understand this assignment will teach me two very important th

ings: researching and writing. I know writing is important and researching is required in just about every career dealing with Communications but why did the subject have to die before 1958? This is a question that I am unable to answer. 

I am also working with my PR Campaigns class on a campaign for the National Kidney Foundation of Utah & Idaho. I feel like there is so much

 to do but I'm not sure where to even begin. I want to help the Foundation and the people but we are supposed to target the entire state of Idaho. I have no clue how to go about this. I am excited to begin working on the campaign, I just wish I knew what all we were going to do. 

I am really excited about the branch activity this weekend. We are going swimming in the Firehole in Yellowstone National Park. I have never been there before so it should be really neat! First we are going to clean up the Reed's cabin (I'm not sure who they are but I think they are in the stake boundaries). They let the Branch use their cabin during the winter and the Branch goes snowmobile riding. Maybe this winter I will get to attempt that... :) 

Well, I think I am going to go to bed... Maybe tomorrow will be less stressful!

Signing off!

Let the classes begin!

So today began the hustle and bustle of another semester. This semester isn't just another semester though. This semester is the final full semester of my college career. After this I will only have 6 credits and my internship. I haven't decided when I want to complete my internship but I am leaning more towards summer semester. If I do this then I will need to see if I can take my 6 credits during the winter semester. By completing my 6 credits and then going on to my internship then I could accept a job offer if it leads to that. 

But anyway, this semester has begun just like all the other semesters have. I go to my first class and hear all about the class. The class usually seems really hard but I know that regardless, I will be able to do whatever I put my mind to. 

My first class was Advanced Media Writing. I was nervous for the class but now, I think I will be fine. The class seems a lot like Intro to Journalism except for the having beats. We won't have beats but we will be writing a lot. I think that this will be an excellent class. I am excited because even though I won't really be writing a lot in my profession, I would like to increase my writing skills. As a PR specialist, you don't write news articles, features, etc. but you do write press releases. Sometimes I feel like my press release writing skills aren't always the best and I hope this class will increase my confidence in my writing. We will be doing media writing and so I think it will increase my knowledge of writing. This will help me to get an internship which will hopefully lead to a job. 

My second class was Parenting. This class might be semi boring! I am afraid that I will be bored in this class like I was in Child Development. I am going to try to make it a good experience but I can't guarantee that it will be the best. :( I do know that it will be an easier class though. I think there will be a fair amount of reading but other than that, it shouldn't take too much time. :)

Right now, I am just waiting for my final class of the day to start. I have Media Research Methods. I am interested in knowing what this class will be like. I know that it will be a learning class but I really think it will help to increase my knowledge and be something that I could add to my resume. 

Honestly, I am really excited for one of classes tomorrow. I have PR Campaigns with Brother Cannon. He is my favorite professor and I think he has a lot that he can teach me. He has been there and done what I want to do. I think this class will help me to feel more confident in going to New York and meeting the HR people. I am nervous because I am not sure I am adequately prepared. I know that I can do the job but the problem is landing the job. Hopefully this class and Case Studies will help me feel more confident!

Well, I am going to sign off for now! 

Financial Institution

Financial information has become an overload!!!!!!! There is no way one person can be expected to understand it all. This semester will be the first semester that financially, I am stressed out beyond belief! Let me begin at the beginning........................

So I register for classes, just like I do every semester, and notice that tuition has again been raised. I didn't think much of it because I always try to earn as much as a I can and then get a loan for the rest. Well, I didn't know that I wasn't going to be working very much this 7 week break or I would have been more worried about this. 

So time passes and I decide that I should probably get my loan stuff together. I filled out all the papers and did everything that I was supposed to do. Well, the school sends me how much subsidized loan I can get and it isn't even enough to cover the cost of tuition. Now I charged to my student account a macbook. Since the school has decided to approve the Laptop initiative, I decided that it was okay to purchase this. I had assumed that I would be working more at my job and would earn approximately $3000. Well, this was not what happened.  I haven't been making much and I put as much as I could into savings and paying off my computer. I still owe $557.33. I didn't get any saved because I working on paying that off. I have not saved any tuition money so I have to take a loan to pay it all.

I decided to call the financial aid office and see what we could do make this work. I wanted to take enough loan to pay off the computer and tuition. The first lady that I spoke to said that there wouldn't be a problem with combining my loan for Fall and Spring semesters. That loan equaled $2351.00 which would have been more than I needed to pay tuition and my computer. So I agreed that that would work. Well, then I called UHEEA to change my promissory note to a different lender. Well, when I called them, they reminded me that I didn't know if I should accept the loan from the school or if they were going to do that for me. I told UHEEA thank you and that I would talk to the school and then change my promissory note. 

I called the school back and transfered me to an actually financial aid officer instead of a student helper. This lady told me that if I combined my loans together then I would only be eligible for $1450 instead of the $2351. I told her that I didn't want to do that then. That doesn't cover tuition either. So now I have no idea what to do! I don't have enough money to cover tuition and my computer unless I go into an unsubsidized loan which would mean that I need to pay $50 every 3 months towards interest on the loan. That really isn't much but I still don't want to have to do that. I just want to be able to do it all in subsidized. This is just too many decisions. 

I don't like making decisions and so this makes me very stressed! I really wouldn't mind paying the $50 every 3 months but I really don't understand why they can't just give me the subsidized loan. I can't even get grants and federal help because my parents claim me on their taxes. This is makes it so hard to get any help from the government. My parents don't pay for my tuition so why should their income be factored into anything!? I just hate that it works that way!

"The world revolves around money" is a true statement regardless if we want to believe it or not. This is disappointing! It isn't the way things should work. It should be so difficult to go to school. I couldn't imagine going to a more expensive school because then I would never be able to afford it!

Anyway, hopefully things work out!

Signing off for now!